I am about to embark on a journey. There will be many twists and likely some U-turns because I have been down this path before. I have fallen off the wagon a few times in the past and then regrouped. I have paid for others to help me. I have sacrificed time, sleep and social events because of the journey and I have also suffered from laziness.
I have no idea where it will take me. But I do know that it is time. It is time for me to COMMIT (that was my word after all) to myself.
And I because there's nothing like a good trip, an adventure or new thing, you might want to join me. If not that’s totally fine too but you are invited.
You are welcome to read all of the vulnerable shares I am about to offer. To hear how a seemingly pulled together girl who built a brand based on her own experience, believes in all of her teachings with her whole heart, and yet has fallen so far off the mountain for so long the bruises and broken bones have already started to heal.
I'm putting it out there for you, for the world, because I think its likely you might relate.
Every Monday and Wednesday, I will chronicle the days of my journey. The ups, downs, all arounds and likely lots of tears. Tell me what good trip doesn’t have at least one moment with tears.
I might also make slightly sarcastic or inappropriate jokes at times, because that’s part of my way. Humor is my go to strategy for stress relief and honestly just life. Because funny is so fun.
This is the most vulnerable I have ever been with anyone, not just you, but with my husband and myself. I know there have been barriers. I know there are still a few limiting beliefs despite the massive amount of work I have done and continue to do.
This is the opportunity for me to stand fully in the sunlight of the spirit. To bask in the warmth and knowledge that I am doing what it takes to live my best life. The kind of rigorous honesty we are called to do when we first get sober.
It never ends there. There is always more. More layers that get peeled away like that flaky, summer, sun burned skin. We are never done. At least I’m not. I don’t want to be.
I want to seek the highest level of truth in myself, the highest level of energetic awareness of my body and connection with my God. And I want you to put your hand in mine because I cannot do it alone. If you want to of course.
And hey if you want to start a human chain full of other women who want to go on the journey (think Forrest Gump when he was running), then share away.
What could be better than a whole bunch of powerful, sober women bonding through the journey of some women they have never met before. Nothing!!
I love you all. See you next week.