Building Emotional Sobriety One Blog Post At A Time
July 14. Last night I went out for a jog/walk with DH at 6:30pm, it was 88 degrees. Evening workouts have always been challenging for me, it’s a long day. But through all the sweat we got it done.
Today up at 4:15 to meet a friend for a 45 walk/jog. I much prefer using this time to also socialize but sadly most people in my life won’t entertain a 5am meeting. I can’t understand why? I was tired and sluggish but it was also really humid.
I am starting to feel a lot better though during the day. I know that’s the food. I have been down this road before. It doesn’t take long of eating a super clean diet with no sugar, white flour or dairy to feel much better. The tendonitis in my elbow and shoulder are still there of course but feeling a little better, I can tell my energy is improving...
July 13. Something that truly annoys me (I want to say hate but also trying not to bring negative language into this space) is when I don’t want to do something and I can tell you all the reasons (aka excuses) that I can’t do it but the nudge/calling/voice from God whatever you want to call it keeps coming.
Anyone else feel this. I mean for real, I don’t want to do the 75 Hard Challenge (if you don’t know what this is click the link it, it truly is an incredible movement).
What the actual. And its not really even because I don’t think I can do it, heck I already have two of the things down. I already drink a gallon of water ever day and I already don’t drink alcohol. So….I’m on the road.
But seriously, the rest feels like a commitment I just don’t want to make. Because it really isn’t something that you can do silently. This is my natural way, in case you were wondering....
July 12. A true test. DH (Darling Husband) asked if I wanted to exercise with him in the am. If you don’t know our story you can read about it in my memoir, Recovering In Recovery. He is also a runner and although not in marathon shape at the moment certainly a lot closer than me.
Last night, I said I could jog for 30 minutes but reminded him I am super slow and can barely make it to that time. He agreed. But in my head I was already doubting the commitment to go with him. Traditionally we would do a lot of talking about issues etc. and the last two times I jogged I was listening to headphones and just trying to breathe. So the idea of talking or even not talking but being stuck with silence was nerve wracking for me.
Plus, I know that he has been running a lot and might not be thrilled with my snails pace or short time frame despite his agreement. But I can do anything or 30 minutes right. I got up, had my coffee and quiet time and...
July 11. It’s Sunday and the waking up wasn’t easy. My body has been sore and exhausted. More validation of how out of shape I am and how much I have let myself go. I spent some time meditating about all the people in the world that wake up feeling that way all the time. How challenging it must be to not feel good all the time but what’s worse is not really knowing you don’t feel good.
I was planning to go to the gym today since I didn’t workout yesterday and I was ready for some resistance training. For some reason (maybe a God wink here), I left that house way to early as the gym doesn’t open until 8am.
On the way there I had the thought of doing another 30 minutes. I figured I could go for a run and then use the gym to stretch and do whatever feels right at that time. Unexpected but I’ll go with it.
I set out with a podcast to keep me company along the way. It was The Armchair...
July 9. Dropped the kids off at swim and drove to the park. I only had an hour so had been thinking on the way up I should just try to run 30 minutes. See how it feels. 30 minutes.
It wasn’t as hot and humid as it had been and very flat. I put my earphones in, found a podcast and started a slow jog. I resisted the usual thoughts of I can’t believe you are in this place. Why did you let yourself go so much? You have trained for 5 marathons. Ugh.
They weren’t strong today. I was grateful.
The first half was good I felt the power my breathing was normal I was enjoying the scenery. At 15 minutes I started breaking down (it still baffles me and breaks my heart a little to see that in writing) but I was determined.
There was a lot of sadness in my heart from the tragic murder of a young person in our community the day before. My girls loosely knew both of the kids involved and they were in shock. So very senseless and tragic. About...
If you have been following me for any length of time you know that I have been a lifetime lover of all things fitness, nutrition and wellness. I was raised as an athlete my whole life, found distance running in my 30’s and had a good ten year career.
I have studied health and wellness as an extension of my clinical practice and coached many women on making major life changes to support their own physical health. I know a thing or two about how to properly nourish the human body and physically train yourself to do some really extreme things.
That’s why its so disappointing that over the last, three to four years I have been on a steady decline in all of these areas. It had been gradual and mostly related to the stress of raising teenagers and maintaining a marriage and building a practice and starting a coaching business. Oh and raising teenagers.
Then Covid hit the world and that was the straw that broke the camels back so to say for me to just hit the ground...
I am about to embark on a journey. There will be many twists and likely some U-turns because I have been down this path before. I have fallen off the wagon a few times in the past and then regrouped. I have paid for others to help me. I have sacrificed time, sleep and social events because of the journey and I have also suffered from laziness.
I have no idea where it will take me. But I do know that it is time. It is time for me to COMMIT (that was my word after all) to myself.
And I because there's nothing like a good trip, an adventure or new thing, you might want to join me. If not that’s totally fine too but you are invited.
You are welcome to read all of the vulnerable shares I am about to offer. To hear how a seemingly pulled together girl who built a brand based on her own experience, believes in all of her teachings with her whole heart, and yet has fallen so far off the mountain for so long the bruises and broken bones have already started to heal.
We have been waiting for this moment for over a year. The mask mandates have been lifted and we are EXCITED!
Don’t come at me please, however you feel about it is valid and I accept and appreciate that. I love you all!
So naturally I went shopping...maskless.
For me it was glorious, and at the same time felt a little naughty.
At the register I was standing to the side by my cart as she filled it.
The lovely young 15 year old ringing me up politely asked if I could move behind the plexiglass because I wasn’t wearing a mask.
Immediately I shuffled over behind the protection as I was asked.
I didn’t think anything of it. Of course I can.
She broke the moments of silence by saying “Thank you for not yelling at me because I asked you to move over, my mom has cancer”.
I was shocked first of all that she assumed I would yell at her, second that she felt the need to apologize for that (why do women also feel the need to apologize for themselves) and third that...
Being able to reframe a situation with new perspective allows you experience the mind shift necessary to move you out of negativity and into the light.
It also looks procrastination right in the face and smiles while you walk towards your goals.
We know that action is created by the thoughts, either conscious or unconscious that directly proceed it. This means that negative thoughts most likely lead to negative actions and positive thoughts to positive actions.
Therefore your mindset is by far you most powerful tool and indicator for success or failure.
Here are the top 5 ways to shift your mind to build self-confidence in recovery:
We know that life is unpredictable. We can’t possibly know how things will go every single day even with the best laid plans. As they say life happens. You must be able to accept that sometimes things will not go as plans.
Learning to go with the flow and be flexible will keep you on course toward your...
I would say at least a couple times a week I get messages from clients or DM’s on Instagram from people struggling with overwhelming feelings of anxiety and don’t know what to do. Usually it is happening right then and they are fighting off a panic attack and grasping for any straw that will take the discomfort away and give them control.
Here is just one example, often it goes on a bit longer and I continue to coach them through the breathing and positive affirmations until their bodies settle down.
I try to tailor my resources to the person as best as I can, even though often they are strangers. This person started the post out asking for prayer so I knew that he was believer and could use some material with that messaging.
Today, I want to share with you my go to content that I like to watch, listen to or read over and over again when I a feeling a bit overwhelmed, over stressed, out of control or just sad. It helps to keep an arsenault...